It’s been a minute since I posted anything about me. Usually I try to fill my posts with personal anecdotes or the latest rap song I’m feeling, especially in my monthly thankful lists. Those types of posts have been noticeably absent for the last few months, so wanted to share what’s been going on lately.
The first thing has been weddings. SO MANY WEDDINGS. I’ve had 6 this year, with one more to go this Labor Day weekend. I know that’s on the low end for some of you, but this was a LOT for me. It’s been incredibly fun watching best friends start out on their next adventure, and you best believe I cried a bit. It’s been an expensive year of traveling and renting runways, and most of my free time has been spent preparing for the next wedding. It’s left little time to work on personal projects, so I’m glad to be done with them for awhile after this weekend.
The next thing has been work. When I’m not moonlighting as a nostalgic pastry chef and blogger, I do lifecycle marketing at Dropbox. We IPO’d in April and it’s brought a whirlwind of change to the company. Hitting numbers matters more than ever, and there’s been some turmoil as many teams, mine included, restructure. Dropbox has been a good place for me; it’s the first time I’ve ever cared about my career, which is crazy to think about but it’s true. It’s a mission I believe in and I find myself wanting to be better. With all this change, I’ve realized the role I want is not the role I’m in, and I’ve been struggling to find the support and projects to get there. This has been exacerbated by my manager recently leaving the company. I still love Dropbox, but the next several weeks will be unpredictable and very telling.
And then there’s a piece that’s pervaded through most of my summer—my anxiety. I’ve had some form of anxiety since I was a kid (I was that baby who cried when my mom left and then kept crying when she came back, for you psych nerds). Over the years, I’ve been in therapy which has helped tremendously. This summer, I decided to start taking medication. When I shared this with a few friends, I’ve been surprised to hear that some of them also take some sort of medication, but nobody talks about it. That makes me really mad at society that we can’t admit to wanting or needing help, and I hope I can change that. I’ve been posting more on Instagram about it, and I’ll probably post more here as well.
For those of you experience anxiety, I know y’all feel me on this. For those who don’t, here’s a starter pack of some of the things I feel almost on a daily basis:
- Everyone is succeeding around me, except for me.
- I’m not good/smart/brave enough to get promoted/be in a committed relationship/accomplish my goals.
- Things I do don’t matter, so why even try.
- Sadness. Generally a lot of sadness.
That’s it for now. I’m going to try and be better at posting more about my life and how/why I love the things I do love so much, like food/cooking/desserts/music(Drake)/swimming/travel/beingIndian. This blog has always been a piece of me, so hopefully I can put a piece of me back in it.